You have no idea! For the better part of 20 years not only did I know, but I accepted the fact that I had lost the war with drugs and I would die with a needle in my arm. Today I am sober and employed by Banyan Treatment Centers. In my opinion on of the best treatment centers to date helping one addict/alcoholic at a time to change their perception that he or she will die with a needle in their arm. Making the impossible, possible is surreal to say the least!
My fans, family, and friends outlook on me has completely changed from night to day. Prior to my sobriety 90% of their comments consisted of stuff like, “Novak, please get yourself together” “Please don’t die" “I’m praying for you” “Get clean for your mother” “Why do people keep giving you chances” “Die already” to “I have 30 days clean, thank you!!!” “You’re truly and inspiration to me” “If you can get clean I know I can” “We knew you could do it” “Thank you for inspiring my son/daughter to get clean” I truly feel loved and as though I finally have a purpose here on earth.
It’s kinda funny, I literally don’t have one friend that would want me to drink or drug even if they don’t get recovery. Every one of them has seen first hand the destruction path I go down after that first drink time and time again. For the safety of myself and them they fully encourage my sobriety to the utmost! I’m truly grateful to have the friends that I have.
I grew up in a household where the abnormal was normal. My mother was a nuclear physicist who instilled morals, values, honesty, and hard working ethics. My father never had a job a day in his life and taught me if (and when) I went to jail how to conduct myself… he died a a crack addict. We sold and used drugs together. I absolutely hated my father for what he did to my mother and I later on became that very man. I believed I was pre-disposed to my addiction genetically.
Basically on May 25, 2015 I finally accepted the fact that I was an alcoholic. I had known for the better part of 20 years I was an alcoholic, I knew that I was “powerless over alcohol" and my life was unmanageable. If that were the case my mother wouldn’t have bought me a plot 4 years ago on Mother’s Day, people wouldn’t have taken life insurance policies out on me, I wouldn’t have been medevact to the hospital on 4 different occasions due to overdoses. I knew I was an alcoholic but when I “accepted” it the terms of my contract changed. It was at that moment I stopped being my biggest enemy and completely "sold out" to sobriety.
Today I currently work with other alcoholics guiding them through the 12 steps. I attend meetings and share my story in different states throughout the nation letting people know that as long as your breathing… recovery is possible.
I was approached by David Goloski, and asked if I would be willing to come to South Florida and share my story with their clients at Banyan. It was at that time I got to see every level of care that Banyan has to offer towards overcoming addiction. I fell in love with their different approaches of recovery, as well as their employees. It felt like a big family of misfits that fit. Doing the right thing for the right reason and believing in one another. They believed in me and my recovery and I believed in their sincerity in helping the sick get better. When they asked if I would be willing to join their team it was a no brainer.
As long as an addict is breathing they have a chance. A chance to turn their life around and truly become free from bondage of self. There’s 3 things that happen to an addict in life. They go to jail, end up in rehab… or die. Those are honestly the only three recurring themes in an addicts life. It doesn’t have to be that way, myself and countless others are living proof. If you want what I have do what I do! It’s that simple.
I do! August 8th I’m sharing at Father Martin Ashley August 10th at a meeting called “The Kitchen” on 18th & Wolf St in Philly August 18th at Phoenix Recovery Center in Maryland August 20th Bowling Green Treatment Center Alumni Picnic August 21st at a meeting in Bel Air, Maryland August 28th in Ohio FOA Rally for Recovery August 31 I’m sharing at an Overdose Awareness Rally in Chicago
If your reading this and can relate, well then so do I. I’ve lived like you’re living, I’ve used like you’re using, and most importantly I’ve felt like you feel. I wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy but here’s the good news… there IS a solution to your problems.